Thursday, September 13, 2001

Thursday - September 13, 2001

Thursday - September 13, 2001

There are so many things that race through your mind at a time like this, I am trying to just get back to some normalcy. They say that the airlines are going to be back to business today, which is a wonderful thing. There's been prayer vigil's all over the country, and I saw last night that people were gathering in front of the White House holding candles.

Went go get my new car inspected yesterday, so I left work early. I got to Riverside, MO where my guy is, and Richard was right there, because he was dropping off Elsa, because they went to Osawatomie yesterday, to try and finish selling his mom's house. So we went to Quick Trip and then he dropped me off at the car place, and I got my car inspected (it passed.....even at a reliable place this time!) and I wandered home. We spent the night together. We're talking about getting married, but we wanted to see if we were going to war first. Leila got all mad at me yesterday at work, because of my previous postin my journal, and so she's refused to answer any of my calls last night. I tried to talk to her through a conference call with Yvette, (I was on my cell phone, and I called Yvette, and then Yvette called Leila) but she said that she didn't want to talk to me. I've added a section about the attack on the memorial page and then also if you would like to voice your opinion on this site, as well as recent events, go to myfeedback page.

Wednesday, September 12, 2001

The Day After

Wednesday - September 12, 2001 | The Day After

I got this image from Mark Allen's Page, he lives in New York, and went bike riding after everything happened, during the night last night. I don't even know what to say, there's really nothing to say, other than I had to call my family yesterday from my cell phone, just to tell them that I loved them, and then I spent the night with Richard just watching the t.v., in stunned silence. We watched the President, and it seems like this is just a pre-cursor to war. That freaks me out, I can just can't imagine this country at war. I just get the feeling like we are going to have some horrible events coming up it's just waiting for whatever is going to happen, is the worst part. You can check the whole scene out, if you have a computer with a java-enabled browser here at perceptual This is the best thing that I've read so far, from my friend Aaron:

Dear Friends,

In the wake of the history making events Tuesday morning, the collective emotional pendulum swings from fear and shock to blind anger and frustration. Truly, this is a turning point for all people of our time, not just Americans. Much like the sinking of the Titanic marked the end of the Edwardian period, such does this attack symbolically end a generation of unprecedented economic, civil and social progress for our country and its many cultures.

The people of New York and Washington DC were subjected to a horror that was beyond cowardly, beyond evil and more calculated then any act committed since the Holocaust. Without question, we are dealing with a faction more disturbed and more powerful then previously encountered. Our government will reassure us that justice will be swift and comprehensive. I truly hope that this is this is the case, not just for the sake of the lives lost but to minimize the possibility of future atrocities. President Bush will continue to rally the nation in the name of patriotism and justice and denounce the perpetrators of this act of war. But such a crime calls for more from us, deeper and more profound then the catch all of patriotism and justice.

Blame is easy to place, difficult to prove. Our information hungry mass media will jump at leads to put a face on the perpetrators. As victims, we must be cautious and patient in our search for truth. This is not a result of a bad government, or a bad religion, but the calculated and malicious act of troubled and maligned people. They will be found and they will be held accountable.

I encourage everyone to look beyond issues of nationality and political rhetoric. What happened Tuesday shocked the world and horrified innocent people from New York to New Delhi. Smug confidence and passive resolve are no longer options for anyone. We need to recognize the proportions of this crime and rally ourselves. Rally our allies. Rally our compassion.

Ignorance is the enemy. Truth is paramount.

Aaron Standish

There are many things that he touches on in that statement, I agree with, but I can't seem to shake this feeling, first of all that here at work..everybody is a fucking expert. "oh we're going to bomb their asses" "oh that fourth plane was definitely going for the white house" it's like...nobody knows anything. Nobody knows who did it, they suspect what's his name, but whatever, nobody really knows nobody can truly tell definitively, and until then, I am going to keep my damm mouth shut, because I can't stand that kind of speculation, Leila was just saying "oh we're going to war" and while I think that is a great possibility, I just can't stand all of these assumptions. People have just been murdered on a grand scale, we are all reeling from shock, why compound the shock with idiocy? Everybody shut the fuck up and let these people do their job, it's not even twenty four hours after it, and according to all these ignorant fucks, we're all ready at war. Can you please just shut the fuck up?

Tuesday, September 11, 2001

Dear God, we're going to war

Tuesday September 11, 2001 | Dear God, we're going to war

2 p.m.: Senior FBI sources tell CNN they are working on the assumption that the four airplanes that crashed were hijacked as part of a terrorist attack.

1:48 p.m.: President Bush leaves Barksdale Air Force Base in Louisiana aboard Air Force One and flies to an undisclosed location.

1:44 p.m.: The Pentagon says five battleships and two aircraft carriers will leave the U.S. Naval Station in Norfolk, Virginia, and head to positions in the New York area and along the East Coast. The carriers are to provide upgraded air defense for the New York and Washington areas.

1:27 p.m.: A state of emergency is declared by the city of Washington.

1:04 p.m.: Bush, speaking from Barksdale Air Force Base, says that all appropriate security measures are being taken, including putting the U.S. military on high alert worldwide. He asks for prayers for those killed or wounded in the attacks and says: "Make no mistake, the United States will hunt down and punish those responsible for these cowardly acts."

12:30 p.m.: The FAA says 50 flights are in U.S. airspace, but none are reporting any problems.

12:15 p.m.: The Immigration and Naturalization Service says U.S. borders with Canada and Mexico are on the highest state of alert, but no decision has been made about closing borders.

12:15 p.m: San Francisco International Airport is evacuated and shut down. The airport was the destination of American Airlines Flight 77, which struck the Pentagon.

12:04 p.m.: Los Angeles International Airport is evacuated.

11:59 a.m.: United Airlines confirms that Flight 175, from Boston to Los Angeles, has crashed with 56 passengers and nine crew members aboard. Emergency personnel at the scene say there are no survivors.

11:26 a.m.: United Airlines reports that United Flight 93, en route from Newark, New Jersey, to San Francisco, has crashed in Pennsylvania, southeast of Pittsburgh. The airline also says that it is "deeply concerned" about United Flight 175.

11:18 a.m.: American Airlines reports it has lost two aircraft. American Flight 11, a Boeing 767 flying from Boston to Los Angeles, had 81 passengers and 11 crew aboard. Flight 77, a Boeing 757 en route from Washington's Dulles Airport to San Francisco, had 58 passengers and six crew members aboard. Flight 11 slammed into the north tower of the World Trade Center.

11:16 a.m.: CNN reports that the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention is preparing emergency-response teams in a precautionary move.

NYC Mayor Guiliani
11:02 a.m.: New York Mayor Rudy Guiliani urges citizens to stay at home and orders an evacuation of the area south of Canal Street.

10:57 a.m.: New York Gov. George Pataki says all state government offices are closed.

10:54 a.m.: Israel evacuates all diplomatic missions.

10:53 a.m.: New York's primary elections scheduled for today are postponed.

10.48 a.m.: Police confirm the crash of a large plane in Somerset County, Pennsylvania.

10.46 a.m.: U.S. Secretary of State Colin Powell cuts short his trip to Latin America to return to the United States.

10:45 a.m.: All federal office buildings in Washington are evacuated.
Second tower falls
10:28 a.m.: The World Trade Center's north tower collapses from the top down as if it were being peeled apart, releasing a tremendous cloud of debris and smoke.

10:24 a.m.: The FAA reports that all inbound transatlantic aircraft flying into the United States are being diverted to Canada.

10:22 a.m.: In Washington, the State and Justice departments are evacuated, along with the World Bank.

10:13 a.m.: The United Nations building evacuates, including 4,700 people from the headquarters building and 7,000 total from UNICEF and U.N. development programs.

Penn. crash scene
10:10 a.m.: United Airlines Flight 93 crashes in Somerset County, Pennsylvania, southeast of Pittsburgh.

10:10 a.m.: A portion of the Pentagon collapses.

10:08 a.m.: Secret Service agents armed with automatic rifles are deployed into Lafayette Park across from the White House.

First tower falls
10:05 a.m.: The south tower of the World Trade Center collapses, plummeting into the streets below. A massive cloud of dust and debris forms and slowly drifts away from the building.

9:57 a.m.: Bush departs from Florida.

9:45 a.m.: The White House evacuates.

Pentagon burns
9:43 a.m.: An aircraft crashes into the Pentagon, sending up a huge plume of smoke. Evacuation begins immediately.

9:40 a.m.: The FAA halts all flight operations at U.S. airports, the first time in U.S. history that air traffic nationwide has been halted.

9:30 a.m.: Bush, speaking in Florida, says the country has suffered an "apparent terrorist attack."

9:21 a.m.: New York City Port Authority orders all bridges and tunnels in the New York City area closed

9:17 a.m.: The FAA shuts down all New York City area airports.

Plane hits WTC
9:03 a.m.: A second plane, apparently a passenger jet, crashes into the second World Trade Center tower and explodes. Both buildings are burning.

8:45 a.m.: A large plane, possibly a hijacked airliner, crashes into one of the World Trade Center towers, tearing a gaping hole in the building and setting it afire.

Wednesday, September 5, 2001

You're bound to be feeling very good right now and could be displaying a rather pleasant and happy-go-lucky attitude today. You might want to try to put your creative talents to some good use at this time. And you might find yourself enjoying some interesting times with your children or loved ones today.

Okay, for the love of all things Christian! So came home last night, after going to starfucks in Westport with Richard, and then realized how close it was to the date of the HopeCares center project. I am going to be singing with this woman (who is supposed to be calling me today and giving me directions to her place) on the 26th, today is the 5th. I have exactly three weeks to get my shit together. I think it should be fine, just as long as we get some work done on it every week, I'll be fine. I just don't want to look unprepared. That sucks. The other thing is that woman, I have to figure out tomorrow, how she fits in with this whole scenario, and if she fits in at all. I should probably stop calling her that woman, her name is Lara. Oh, and yesterday I was re-creating my Rufus page, displaying all of those pictures. I have also found a way to put a script on these pages, to prevent anyone from taking any of my pictures. I was trying to figure out a way that I could display those Rufie pictures without these damm internet bandits taking those pictures and re-distributing them without my permission. That happens rampantly on the internet, but now I have installed a script on that page, that does not allow you to right click and save any of the images on my page....WOO HOO! The other thing that I have been concentrating on is getting to Chicago for the weekend of the 23rd of September. I am going to try my best to get there for Madeline's christening, and I would probably be staying at Yvette's house and she is having a bachellorette party that weekend, I just found out for a friend of Mary Ann's (Mary Ann is the girlffriend of Yvette's cousin Geo who both live downstairs in the house that they live in)on saturday, so I am totally excited about that. I will be the only guy at the bachelorette party. This email is from Yvette

You will be the only male other than the 3 strippers-- I just told Mary ann you might be there she asked if you can bar tend with just a bow tie on??? HAHAHAHHAH
Oh, and I just designed a new, banner ad for my website

Oh thank you universe! Just talked with Rick Fisher, and he said that he has not cashed my check yet, and won't until early next week, which is completely fabulous, because I thought that if he was going to cash that check for the deposit for the Europe trip, we would have had a bouncing baby boy on our hands, and you know me.....YOU KNOW SHE NOT PRENANT! Can I tell you how much I hate getting
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fuck the bullshit people.

Tuesday, September 4, 2001

I've Tried To BE Judy Garland All My LIFE!

Step up to the plate and keep your eye on the ball. Mars demands that you do something, while Venus persuades you to do it beautifully. Your determination is a big point in your favor.

Well this weekend was fabulous I must say. Went down to Osawatomie Friday night and then had the garage sale saturday morning/day. Came back to K.C. Saturday afternoon, went out to dinner with Elsa and Richard at the Paradise Grill, which I have to say is so fabulous, it's hard to describe. Sunday, woke up, went to the service which was fabulous, Lisa Wenneger-Cole sang and was marvelous. Went out to lunch at Chipotle with Susan/Kendra and Kathleen and Richard. Had a fabulous lunch there, went home didn't do anything for the rest of the day. Monday, woke up at 11am, to the sounds of the piano being played. Bill Nelson was rehearsing with Richard for his new musical that they're writing together. Ran a couple errands with Richard, to Wal Mart to get his battery installed. Dropped his car off at Liebrands because now his car won't start, and they had to start the car by pushing it (it's a stickshift). So, hopefully he won't have too much to deal with, perhaps just a starter. Went out to lunch with Richard, came home, rehearsed with Richard for my show at the HopeCares center. Getting ever more excited about that endeavor. Talked with Leila during the night, and she was saying that she saw the Judy Garland special on Lifetime, where Judy says

"Do you know how difficult it is to BE Judy Garland, I've tried to BE Judy Garland all my LIFE!"

and we laughed and laughed about that. I didn't like that series, I saw it when it was on ABC and I thought it just portrayed her as this tragic figure, and not much of a person. That well may have been true, but the other thing that I was sort of bothered by in that whole episode, was that Lorna Luft is a bitch. Everybody knew that Judy Garland died on the toilet, and her death was horrible, all of these things were public in the first place, that bitch was just trying to cash in on her mothers name, and even though it probably was cathartic for Lorna, I just thought the intention behind that series was just horrible. Maybe I'm reading too much into it, but I didn't really learn anything about Judy Garland that I didn't know before. So there. Sue emailed me two pictures of the new baby, of her first bath and they are so cute I could just cry. I am going to try and get out there to Chicago for Madeline's christening, but Thom (my brother) told me that if I didn't get out there, that it wasn't a big deal, I'd like to make it anyway. I went for a bike ride yesterday for the first time in a week. I just need to get back in shape, because I am becoming Nell Carter. I love Nell Carter, but that's beside the point. So I resigned myself to excersise more, and take better care of myself, eat better...the general sort of stuff that I should have been doing in the last couple of months, but just haven't.

Saturday, September 1, 2001

From Osawatomie, KS

You know I would never have thought that I would be typing "from osawatomie, kansas" in my life....ever. We are in the midst of the garage sale, and it's noon right now and we have made over $700 already. WOO any way you put it, the garage sale was a success. Now the people are sort of dwindling, and not coming in such great numbers as before.