Friday, August 31, 2001

Labor Day Weekend

Libra enters a boom-or-bust cycle at the height of the good times. Pick up the clues that the universe has left for you to follow. In a positively charged environment, romance is everywhere.

I have so much to say it's not right. You are so wrong you're right! So anyway...I went out with Lisa..we went to Genghis Khan on 39th. Let's just say fabulous. We gossiped, talked about where we were in our lives, and if we wanted to move out of Kansas City. We moved on to the little jazz bar..I think it was called "Jazz" anyway, it's right on the corner there by the G.Khan, and we started to drink tanqueray and tonics. So it didn't take too long before we were a bit loopy. So we were just talking and then this woman came up to the corner of the bar, and was lighting up a cigarette, and I didn't really notice her until she walked to the side of us and I noticed what to me, was the most shocking, and upsetting fact. She was pregnant. Now, before you start, let me just say that I know that it's none of my business and I know that I'm prying into other people's bizznatch, but whatever with that. This woman was smoking like a fiend, in the time that we were there, she smoked like six cigarettes with her husband, and then she brough her 'other' three year old child to the bar, and was blowing smoke in his face too. I just couldn't believe it. Oh yea, and she was drinking too, she totally took a shot of something. I was just watching her, but not being too obvious in my stunned silence. After a while, I just couldn't handle it anymore, I just stopped looking in her direction. It was upsetting. I know....I know....just because it's none of my business boo hoo. Then we were discussing where the line was in situations like that, and she wanted to go up to the woman and tell her, and I said no, that she knew what she was doing, and she was just making a conscious choice to smoke and drink while she was pregnant. So infuriating. There are people in the world who would give their arm for a child, and then people so callously treat their children like that. Lovely. I'll step off my soap box now. I am going down to Osawatomie with Richard tonight, to help him with the garage sale that he is having at his mothers house tomorrow. We'll go down tonight after he gets out of his rehearsal tonight, and have the sale tomorrow, all day. Come back saturday night, and then spend saturday/sunday night at home.

oh yeah, and I slept last night, I had a dream about Kathy Kuceba, in the late hours of the morning. Kathy Kuceba was a lunch lady at my grammar school. I haven't thought about that school, or that name, since I was at that school. That's right, since 1980

Thursday, August 30, 2001


Your mind reaches a conclusion that your heart has long understood. Now that you're totally present and available, let the real fun begin. Artists feel the Aquarius Moon luring them to wide, beautiful spaces.

Oh, it feels as if I haven't slept in nineteen years. That's okay, I should just stop paying attention to this, so my mind is not preoccupied with it. I think that's how I get into 90% of my trouble, is my mind. That was certainly the case when in the process of stopping smoking recently. I was done with the physical aspect of it, and now (still) my mind is trying to convince me that I could use a cigarette, and not be addicted. I know that is certainly not the case.

Water or Coke?

1. 75% of Americans are chronically dehydrated. (Likely applies to half the world population)

2. In 37% of Americans, the thirst mechanism is so weak that it is often mistaken for hunger.

3. Even MILD dehydration will slow down one's metabolism as much as 3%. (So if your not loosing eight as well as you'd like...!)

4. One glass of water will shut down midnight hunger pangs for almost 100% of the dieters studied in a U-Washington study.

5. Lack of water, the #1 trigger of daytime fatigue.

6. Preliminary research indicates that 8-10 glasses of water a day could significantly ease back and joint pain for up to 80% of sufferers.

7. A mere 2% drop in body water can trigger fuzzy short-term memory, trouble with basic math, and difficulty focusing on the computer screen or on a printed page.

8. Drinking 5 glasses of water daily decreases the risk of colon cancer by 45%, plus it can slash the risk of breast cancer by 79%, and one is 50% less likely to develop bladder cancer.

Are you drinking the amount of water you should every day?


1. In many states (in the USA) the highway patrol carries two gallons of Coke in the truck to remove blood from the highway after a car accident.

2. You can put a T-bone steak in a bowl of coke and it will be gone in two days.

3. To clean a toilet: Pour a can of Coca-Cola into the toilet bowl and let the "real thing" sit for one hour, then flush clean. The citric acid in Coke removes stains from vitreous china.

4. To remove rust spots from chrome car bumpers: Rub the bumper with a rumpled-up piece of Reynolds Wrap aluminum foil dipped in Coca-Cola.

5. To clean corrosion from car battery terminals: Pour a can of Coca-Cola over the terminals to bubble away the corrosion.

6. To loosen a rusted bolt: Applying a cloth soaked in Coca-Cola to the rusted bolt for several minutes.

7. To bake a moist ham: Empty a can of Coca-Cola into the baking pan, wrap the ham in aluminum foil, and bake. Thirty minutes before the ham is finished, remove the foil, allowing the drippings to mix with the Coke for a sumptuous brown gravy.

8. To remove grease from clothes: Empty a can of coke into a load of greasy clothes, add detergent, and run through a regular cycle. The Coca-Cola will help loosen grease stains. It will also clean road haze from your windshield.

For Your Info:

1. The active ingredient in Coke is phosphoric acid. Its Ph is 2.8. It will dissolve a nail in about 4 days. Phosphoric acid also leaches calcium from bones and is a major contributor to the rising increase in osteoporosis.

2. To carry Coca-Cola syrup (the concentrate) the commercial truck must use the Hazardous material place cards reserved for Highly corrosive materials.

3. The distributors of coke have been using it to clean the engines of their trucks for about 20 years!

Wednesday, August 29, 2001

A dark day for the state of Missouri

Write down a dream to see how it looks as a plan. Be realistic about something that obviously won't work. You have next weekend to think this through and make sure that it comes out right at the other end.

I am just glad to live in a state where same sex marriages are now banned. Not just not allowed, but banned. That's great. I'm glad my elected representatives really take into consideration my viewpoint, and my issues. You had better believe that I am going to email/write/fax all my state representatives about this, and continue to, until they lift the ban. If you aren't aware, Missouri just passed a ban on gay marriages, that took effect yesterday.

[451.022. 1. It is the public policy of this state to recognize marriage only between a man and a woman.

2. Any purported marriage not between a man and a woman is invalid.

3. No recorder shall issue a marriage license, except to a man and a woman.]

451.022. 1. It is the public policy of this state to recognize marriage only between a man and a woman.

2. Any purported marriage not between a man and a woman is invalid.

3. No recorder shall issue a marriage license, except to a man and a woman.

4. A marriage between persons of the same sex will not be recognized for any purpose in this state even when valid where contracted.

That's great. I feel love from my state legislators.

Tuesday, August 28, 2001

The rest of my life

Good Morning Libra! You'll probably feel like spending plenty of quiet time alone at home today. And it should be a great time for you to take a little break from all the demands of the outside world. Your private life will seem much more important to you than anything else right now. And you'll probably be more than willing to make some sacrifices for the people you love.

Well there's not to much to report my pretties. I've been having a pretty low key life for the last couple days, and to tell you the truth, I really like it. It seems as if the insomnia has crept back in. Yesterday..well I guess it was Sunday night I took one of the sleeping pills that Richard gave me, from his mother, so they were prescription, and it worked..I guess, but then all day yesterday I was a mess...I was all emotional and upset at everything, and I can only surmise that it was that stupid pill. Now last night, I could hardly sleep, I know I saw 3 and 4am go by, and then could hardly get out of bed this morning. It's a vicious cycle. I'm been feeling sort of melencholy these past few days, and I don't know why...maybe it's just the lingering effects of the sleeping pills that i've been taking. I hate that...I wish I could just fall asleep and sleep forever. I love insomnia.

Monday, August 27, 2001

LIBRA An unusually good astrological day is waiting for you! Lucky Libra can expect the next 24 hours to be full of clear communication and harmonious transactions. You seem to have a special grasp of the intangible right now, so don't let it go to waste. This is a great time to get new ideas onto paper and to sketch designs that have been swirling around in your head. Tonight, savor every moment. .

For the love of all things christian!...I was late to work this morning, it wasn't a big deal, only like a half an hour. The only reason that I was late was because I took a sleeping pill last night, because I couldn't sleep, and it wasn't wearing off at I was so completely drowsy this morning, and still am now that I think of it. You know how that feels? You take a pill, and then crash into sleep, and then wake up completely drowsy for the rest of the day...I hate it. I hate not sleeping even worse. This weekend I hardly did anything at all. Saturday morning, I did some banking, and I went to the evil Wal Mart to make some purchases, and then I came home, and Richard and I had to go to this dinner theatre thing, it was a murder mystery. So it was so gay. The only thing of note, was that Richard's ex was in the cast. This is how this whole thing happened. Richard and his friend Elsa are supposed to write a murder mystery for this upcoming Halloween at CSL so the church bought them tickets to go to a similar one for informational purposes, you know...for research. Well it turns out that Richard's ex is in this cast, and it made him horribly uncomfortable to have me in the same room with what's his name. I tried to make him as comfortable as I could, but it was apparent that he wanted to stick his head underneath the sand, and just dissappear at first. Then after a while, he warmed up to the situation, and we actually had fun at the thing. I thought the story was a bit too complex...maybe not complex, but for our purposes, I hink that we need to simplify this murder mystery completely. Other than that, my only other complaint was that I thought all the characters were so gay! I mean, the people who played the characters were all gay, and it just seemed like the characters were too, but it was a wedding thing, and they were all professing love to members of the opposite sex, and I thought, no...he's a big ol nellie....retract the wings mr. faerie! Other than that, I thought it was fun...I shook Kevin's hand at the end of the show, at the receiving line, and was complimentary. I treated him as I would have liked to be treated, and it was brilliant.

So Sunday, I woke up quite late, and didn't have time to go to the service so I resounded myself to sleep even later. It seems that my insomnia has crept back into my life, and I can use all the sleep I can take. I got out of bed at about 11am or so, and languished around in my underwear for the early part of the day. Then I got completely motivated and decided to go on a bike ride, so I hopped up on my fabulous bike, and went trekking around. I don't know, it's just not the same around here. When I was living in Chicago, I used to be able to jump on my bike, and get to the lake in five minutes, and now, its just a sea of suburbia. I guess I could ride around on the tarmac of K.C.I. but I don't think that they like that very much..just a hunch.

I had a wacked dream last night, or was it friday night, or saturday...i think it was friday night, because i didn't remember it until saturday afternoon. I was driving (the new chrysler) and it suddenly popped into my head....and I had quite an emotional moment whilst driving south on I-29. So anyway, the dream was that I was driving down the highway with my brother Mike and I looked to the side of the road, and there were all these people who were injured, and they were walking along, begging for help. So my brother said "we gotta stop" so we stopped and got out, it must have been a plane crash, or a bus crash, I couldn't tell what, but the people were all like walking along aimlessly looking for someone to help them, and we were the only two people helping them. I was getting horribly upset, and Mike was too, because we were the only ones who were helping them, and it was a horrifyingly helpless and traumatic feeling that we were the only ones helping all of these thousands of people. That was great. I love waking up like that.

I got a letter that I was excited to receive:

William K. Rosen
---- Ave. KCMO, 64151

Dear William:

Thank you for contacting my office regarding Senate Bill 19, the Employment Non-Discrimination Act of 2001, sponsored by Senator Tom Daschle.

Senate Bill 19 is a bill that protects the civil rights of all Americans, which covers a broad array of issues. As I am sure you are aware, the Employment Non-Discrimination Act of 2001, prohibits employment discrimination on the basis of sexual orientation. Additionally, this bill prohibits the Equal Employment Opportunity Commission from collecting statistics on sexual orientation.

The Senate bill is awaiting a hearing in the Senate Judiciary committee. I appreciate your views on this bill and will keep these in mind as this bill moves through Congress. Thank you again for contacting my office.


Sam Graves
Member of Congress.

I love my life. Just when I was sort of feeling blue, and sort of melencholy, I was rummaging through the chorus pictures, because I have been assigned to do the pictures part of the new chorus website, and lo and behold I find a picture of Richard and I, the first day we ever met, sitting in the lobby of the Fairmont Hotel in San Jose California. God, does that picture bring back memories. I had heard a rumor that that picture was floating around somewhere on the internet, but never could get a hold of it, and it finally turned up in the chorus archives. Fabulous. This is such a great picture of the both of us, I put it on my bio page too. We met that day, and continued to hang out all day. There was a party at the Fairmont hotel with all the people who were staying there or was some party, and we were right in the middle of it, talking and smooching, and drinking. I went to his hotel room, and we woke up his roomates because we were having such loud sex :-)

Friday, August 24, 2001

The day I almost careened into the wall

You'll probably feel like spending most of the day somewhere where you feel safe and secure and don't have to worry about being bothered too much. Your thoughts are likely to be focused on your financial situation today, and you might want to think about ways in which you can put your money to some better use.

This is day that I almost died, and the day that I bought a car that the brake line is leaking, the altenator doesn't work, and the battery is not charging. So from work, I came home, and after I visited with my husband for a while, I left to go to the chorus webpage meeting. So we met, and there were tasks to be delegated, so I am taking care of the pictures part of the new chorus website. That's fine. I stopped atStarfucks, to get me a drink, and then took off for home. As I was coming off the highway, I noticed that my brakes were not responding. Reacting with complete hysteria, I put the car in the lowest gear possible, and tried to stand on the brakes...hardly any response, so I veered around the cars waiting for the green light at the intersection, and almost caused like four accidents. So I put my flashers on, and drove home. That's great, now, not only do I have non-working brakes on the new car that I bought from Greg S. Davis, but I still have the altenator and the battery issues to deal with. I'm glad that I'm so trusting of a person. Especially another fag. Oh by the way, the guy who I bought the car from, his name is

Greg S. Davis
He lives in Overland Park, Kansas. I encourage you to sell him a car that won't even start. That's great. For all you chorus girls who read my journal, I know you know that he's in the Heartland Mens Chorus. (WHICH, by the way, is getting a new website very soon, thanks to Ames H, and Mark M. and that other guy and I) That's all I am going to say about that issue. Let me just say that I am very dissapointed by this whole thing. I don't even care about the money, it's the dishonesty, and the disclosure...or the lack of disclosure that I am so dissapointed with.
I just got an email from the guy at LifeBeat and this is what he had to say:


At this point in time we are not ready to officially expand our Hearts & Voices program in other cities, but hope to sometime in the future. We have occassionally done shows in Newark, N.J. and recently did a show in Los Angeles. Right now we don't have the staffing or funding to expand on a more regular basis, but perhaps we will at some other point in time.

I applaud your efforts and hope the show at Hope Cares goes well. I've been involved with Hearts & Voices for over 4 years and fully understand it's importance. Please feel free to call or write for suggestions or information. If I can be of some help, I'd be glad to. Keep in mind that Hearts & Voices was started by people who just wanted to entertain a friend in the hospital, so you never know.

Take care and good luck.


So you never DO know...he's actually perfectly correct there. That was my vision, actually, to start a whole organization of performers that go and do volunteer work with AIDS patients. Amazing, and then I get this message, that I get from Okrah everyday, right after I got that email about the performing:

"Destiny is not a matter of chance, it is a matter of choice; it is not a thing to be waited for, it is a thing to be achieved."

--William Jennings Bryan, politician

This is an email from Greg, dated today (08.24.01)

I called Midas to get the service history on the Chrysler this morning. We had the Chrysler serviced at the 103rd and State Line Midas on 8/7/99. At that time we had an inspection of the brakes and they were found to be in good working order except for some wear in the brakes lines on the front of the car. We had Midas go ahead and do the repairs they suggested at that time which was replacement of the two front brake lines. The inspection did not show need of any further repairs at that time. The warranty on the brake lines/hoses as I understand it from the Midas people is one year. I don't know the exact nature of where the leak is you mention, but mom never had any problems of that nature since we had the repairs made back in August of 1999.
I'm not discounting the fact that you've had a problem by mentioning that, I'm only giving you the history as we know it. I will be happy to assist you with any other information I have or my time if you need me to. I'm truly sorry that you have had this problem(s). We certainly didn't anticipate that this would happen as the car was running well for mom up to the time we sold you the vehicle. Let me know. Thanks

and my response:

that's all great information Greg, but the one warranty has a date of 08/12/00 and the other warranty doesn't even have a date on it. Funny that both the warranty that you speak of is of the year 1999, and then the papers that I have are 2000? But they both are void, because the warranty is only good for one year, and that has already passed.

I was going to ask you to completely undo this deal, as it seems like we are both unhappy with it a couple days ago, but then decided to wait it out, and now I almost died because the brakes fail as I'm coming off the highway last night.

Whatever! I don't expect anything from you now, other than pertinent information of the history of the car (not that matters anymore, but I may still need the information); I will contact you if I need any other information about the stupid chrysler.

thanks, but no thanks,

Thursday, August 23, 2001

The Laramie Project

So, there is so much that happened yesterday, I don't know where to begin. The main thing was that I saw the Laramie Project, and Fred Phelps was there with all of his pregnant women, with signs that said "God Hates Fags" and "AIDS is God's wrath" and all of that bullshit. I know that I've seen him and his idiots before, but I've never personally seen them with my own eyes, and to tell you the truth, it's shocking. It is shocking to me that people with their own mind, who have the ability to think rational thoughts, would choose to hate so freely, and so outwardly. It still amazes me. One of the best thing that we did was that we made our own signs that said "God loves everyone" and "Phelps is Hate" and the such. So, we were across the street from them, and people were honking their horns at them, and giving them the finger, it was great. I thought the best part of it was that the theater people had more supporters than they did, we totally outnumbered them. So, as they were leaving (they only picketed a couple of hours, and when the clock was at 8:00 we noticed them leaving), I ran across the street, and they were putting their signs in the back of their big truck, they closed the door, and they were all getting in the side of the truck I threw my sign that said "Phelps is Hate" in the passenger side of their van and said "Oh here, you might want my sign too!" and the guy said "watch it asshole" and I ran back across the street. I know the sign got in the van, but what they did with it afterwards, I don't know we just went in the theatre and watched the play.

So now, to that. Yeah, I can say that the play was unbelieveable, that it touched me mentally, emotionally, and spiritually, and that it probably was the most amazing thing that I've seen in a long time, but these are just words, and they do not do justice to what the experience was. I was sort of hestitant to even write about it, because it sounds so inadequate, but it was a unreal experience. The play is not even about the actual hate crime, I mean it IS, but it doesn't dwell on that, it's just a series of monologues from the people in the town, the bartender of the bar where Matthew Shepard was last seen, some of the towns' people, but the way that they present it is simply stunning. RUN and see it if you can.

I just hope that people who haven't been touched by this idea, or by this experience of Matthew Shepard being killed, will go to this play, and just learn about it. That's all you can really ask people to do, is to learn about something and make their own minds about it. That's what I've learned about people (am i being redundant here?), is that you can't tell people what to believe, you can give them information, and they'll choose to believe it or not. It's like those Phelps people. Their information is that gay people are evil, and that their god is going to strike down on gay people and put them to hell. People who are not so ignorant know that things like that just don't happen. There is no man in the sky that is keeping track of what we do and what we don't do. Now I'm going on my own personal ideology, but it's just true, or at least, it's my own personal truth. So anyway, enough ranting about that. I was just ranting about Junior...with Leila...but that's okay. I had the meeting with the woman from the hope cares center last night and it was fabulous. We set a date for september 26th at 6:30 for the performance! WOO HOO FOR ME!

Wednesday, August 22, 2001

Ally McBeal

Good Morning Libra

It's a good time to reflect on a few things you might need to take care of. There may be a number of issues that require your attention, and it wouldn't be a good idea to ignore things that need to be dealt with. Don't be afraid to do a little soul-searching since you should be able to accomplish quite a lot right now.

For some strange reason, I woke up with the theme song from "Ally McBeal" (I've been searching my whole life.....blah blah blah) running through my head, and it hasn't gone away, and I'm about to slit my wrists. Thats a nice peaceful thought in the morning. So, after much trial and tribulation, I charged the stupid battery in the car, and it started this morning, and I took the fucking car to work, and it made it all the way. God knows if the car will start this afternoon, when I have to go to the HopeCares center for a meeting. I'll have the campus security number with me when I go to my car, so if it doesn't start, I'll call them, and have them jump it or something. I don't know. I've been asking people that I know about domain names for this webpage, and I just can't come up with any that I like that I want to keep. I'll wait for suggestions. I also got this from my friend Missy Koonce who is involved with the play "The Laramie Project" She said that Fred Phelps and his brigade of ignorant fools are going to picket the play "The Laramie Project"

A bit surprising perhaps, but THE LARAMIE PROJECT is hopeful. Although the play presents the factual accounts surrounding Shepard's death, its focus is not a re-enactment of the crime. In fact, Matthew Shepard never appears as a character in the play. THE LARAMIE PROJECT is, instead, a portrait of a small town's mourning. It is told through the experiences of those who lived through the crime, resulting media sensation and subsequent trials of Shepard's assailants. It shows not only how Laramie mourns the loss of one of its own, but also how a sudden and unexpected awareness of the hatred a small town harbored resulted in the loss of its own innocence.
THE LARAMIE PROJECT is about a town forced to contemplate, "How could this happen here?" Shepard's ordeal is only the springboard to discover what it takes to build and hold a community together, and what, if anything, can tear it apart. In the end, it is a story that makes the names Matthew Shepard and Laramie, Wyoming, synonymous with hope, courage, and, ultimately, survival.

I hope they go and beat up Fred Phelps, but then again, I would never condone violence against another human being, but maybe, perhaps he can be an exception to that rule. My friend Yvette got the boot of her car, but here is how she explained it.

Oh dear,
I got your message this morning, it was a total of $750 it took me all day to pay for the the darn thing and now I am on a payment plan with my cousin... Geez-but i have no more boot though---so thank GOD!!! Hey I will call you later I am busy today since I missed yesterday.
Love Ya,

Oh my god so much is happening. We got tickets to go see the Laramie Project, and Lisa and I are going tonight. Fun fun. So this is an excerpt from the book that the church uses for it's doctrine. This is what it says about insomnia. (I only am typing this because I have horrible insomnia for years, and it's been getting worse lately. I thought that when I type something it seeps into my brain better, so I'll type this, and hopefully it'll help)

Treating Insomnia

Insomnia is the result of a disturbed mental condition, either conscious or subconscious. Sometimes this arises from shock, grief, or anxiety, though often it is merely an inability to let go of the affairs of the day. Perfect trust in God within is the secret of relaxation, rest and renewal. The following is one treatment for insomnia:

"The Spirit within me is in perfect rest. The center of my being is quiet and poised. I let my inner spirit fill my whole being with peace and stillness. With this word, I now relax in body and mind. I let the divine tranquility fill me."
"My mind now releases all sense of burden or strain. Nothing can hurt or disturb my spiritual self. I am free and safe. All plans and ideas can wait until later. The Divine Wisdom works through me and I am protected from mistakes. My mind is quiet, calm, and deeply still. All tension is released and the great inner peace flows out through every nerve. My body rests in the still silence of the Spirit. I bless my body and my mind, for they are good and worthy of my love."
"The great blessing of the Spirit purs through me now and protects me in all my ways. My good is around and with me so that I am secure and safe. The loving presence of Spirit is with me now and forever, so that I am divinely protected. I let go of all problems and know that Spirit is with me. The great quietness and calm of the Universal Love is within me. I am richly blessed"
"Rest permeates my mind and body with its healing presence. I do not try to make anything happen, I accept restful sleep. Restfullness pervades my room and my bed. I let the Spirit take care of the Universe and my affairs, while I release all responsibility and sleep.

I am off to see the play about Matthew Shepard, my pretties! , and I think I decided that I am going to name this webpage, that's if I dont' receive any more fabulous responses *rolls eyes*

Tuesday, August 21, 2001

The day that the Denver Boot reappears

There's a big difference between being selfish and simply demanding what's coming to you, Libra. You've worked very hard to get where you are, so don't be shy about asking for whatever compensation you feel you deserve. Fair is fair, and what's yours is yours. Don't be afraid to ask for a salary increase or to collect on an outstanding debt. When the Moon is in Libra, it's easy to defend yourself without being offensive. Try to get along with others, if possible.

I won't even comment on the horoscope. So I'm driving to work, and my phone rings, and I'm all "who is calling me at 730 in the morning?" So it's Yvette, and she is laughing hard, because she tells me that there is a large peice of yellow metal on the wheel of her car and she doesn't know what to do about it. So I tell her, honey, that's a Denver Boot, and they put it on there because you haven't paid parking tickets in a long time, and you have twenty four hours before they (the city of Chicago) tow your ass to an impound where they can charge you like fifty dollars a day storage.

Can you tell I've been through this before?

So she has no way of getting to work, and that's why she called me on my cell phone. Yvette cracks me up, because when stuff like this happens...and to tell you the truth, the city of Chicago is all about drama like that, I won't even go into the many dramas I've had surrounding cars, parking, towing, booting, impouding...etc. But all you have to know is that the evil monster city of Chicago took my car, and is about to take Yvette's car if she doesn't do something really quick. But anyway, I was making a point in that, whenever soemthing like this happens to Yvette, she just laughs. She doens't get all upset and karate chop the people, or do one of those moves that you hit the bridge of their nose and instantly kill them, she just laughs and says "dear god, what am I going to do?" I think it's because, living in Chicago, you just sort of get used to shit like that, and I was so used to stuff like that, I used to wake up and say "okay, what house is going to fall on me today." It sort of goes along with the trio page, in that, all of those experiences are crazy, but they all happened in the city limits of Chicago. I sometimes thank god that I moved away from that city. I guess it's like anything else, sometimes I'm thankful that I moved, and then sometimes I'm not. I'm just fickle. Another thing that happened yesterday was that I went and bought the car from the guy in the chorus. So anyway, I got the car back home, and I was toying around with it, so I tried to turn it back on, and it was struggling to start, so I called him up and I was not freaking out, but this morning the car wouldn't start. See what I mean about houses falling on me? So anyway, it wasn't a big deal, because I had Richard's car, but nonetheless, I still needed to call him, so I did, and I am going to pick up his charger and charge it all night tonight, and then see how it works tomorrow morning. I just got this email from the guy from LifeBeat

Hi William:

I am responding to your email regarding LIFEbeat's Hearts & Voices. First let me start off by commending you for your interest in being starting a similar program in Kansas City. At the moment we are not able to start a sister program in Kansas City. However I suggest that you start off by trying to do a show or two at a hospital and see how it goes.
We have experience working with Kansas City Free Clinic with our outreach program. Perhaps they can suggest where you can go to get started. The number there is 816-753-5144. I have a HIV/AIDS Resource book that lists a couple of hospitals have medical services for people with AIDS. I don't have any further knowledge of their services, and if they would be interested in having you perform for the patients. If you call them, ask for either their volunteer office or recreation/activities office. It's worth a call. They are:
Trinity Lutheran Hospital - 816-751-4600
Truman Medical Center West Infectious Disease Clinic 816-556-3554

Let me know if you have any questions and good luck.
Pete Solomita

Oh well, it's not a big deal, actually I sort of expected to get this response, and the last time I was trying to start to get this idea off the ground, I emailed them, and they gave me the free clinic number and I called them, and they didn't have any idea of what to do or who to call, so I'm on my own, but I have been since the beginning of this whole idea. I have a meeting with the events coordinator at the HOPE CARES center tomorrow after work, so I'm totally excited about that. Baby steps. Oh that's right, I forgot...what's his name...oh yeah....dumbfuck was in town today. On that political tangent,

Sen. Jesse Helms, one of the most powerful conservative voices in Congress, plans to retire when his term expires in 2003, Reuters learned Tuesday. Two sources who spoke with staffers in Helms' office said Tuesday the five-term Republican will announce his retirement plans Wednesday night on WRAL-TV. Helms, who turns 80 on Oct. 18, was first elected to the Senate in 1972. In recent years, he has suffered from a variety of health problems, including prostate cancer. Though the White House, the Republican National Committee and the GOP Senate campaign committee had not been notified directly about Helms' plans, several top Republicans told the AP they expected Helms to announce that he will not seek another term. Eddie Woodhouse, a Helms aide in Raleigh, refused to say what the televised remarks would involve. Helms' staff late Tuesday afternoon began telling senior Republicans, including Bush advisers, that he would not seek another term, according to two GOP sources. His departure would complicate GOP hopes of reclaiming the narrowly divided Senate. Democrats seized control by one vote when Sen. James Jeffords of Vermont left the GOP to become an independent. Another senior Republican incumbent, 98-year-old Sen. Strom Thurmond of South Carolina, has said he will not seek re-election next year. Helm's departure would clear the way for failed presidential candidate Elizabeth Dole to seek the GOP nomination. Republican officials were hoping to avoid a nasty primary fight between Dole and former Sen. Lauch Faircloth, who was defeated in 1998 by Democrat John Edwards. Republicans are defending 20 Senate seats in 2002, including Thurmond's. Democrats are defending 14, none of them open. In the Senate, Helms has been a staunch opponent of communist regimes and critic of foreign aid and used the chairmanship of the Senate Foreign Relations Committee, which he held from 1995 until this year, to promote his views. Although he mellowed somewhat in recent years, Helms saw himself as a family values stalwart and he took to the floor often to condemn what he called gay lifestyles. He was seen as unsympathetic to civil rights generally, and vigorously fought the use of tax dollars to subsidize what he considered indecent art, and he was a hard-liner in foreign affairs and outspoken critic of the United Nations.

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Monday, August 20, 2001

The day I buy a new l'auto

You might be forced to have to defend your ideas even if you don't really feel up to it today. Just try not to take any disagreements too personally right now. Identify any truly important issues and be prepared to stand up for them, but realize that it might be time to let go of some of the other less important ones.

Oh, that's just fucking great, I was just talking about how this guy who I'm buying the car from, is sort of jerking me around. Not to the point where I dont' want to buy the car, but if he continues to jerk me around, I'm going to let him know about it. I could break his neck like a chicken bone. Nevertheless, I think I'll buy the stupid car because I need it. So, anwyay the weekend recap:


was spent preparing the place, and getting everything in order for the p's grand arrival


Morning I went to the bank, got that all cleared up for today, money issues. Shopping for food to cook for the parents when they eventually do arrive. So they called, said they were a half an hour away, and were on the way. They arrived, and loved the place. My mom gave me a quick haircut, which to me, is the best of both worlds. Got a quick new doo, it's cheap and fancy free. I cooked on the grill, Ricky got to visit with my p's, we ate, then went out to starfucks for a dessert beverage. They eventually went back to the hotel.


Ricky left early to go to work, p's picked me up, and we went to the service, and they apparently loved it. I introduced them to Jerome, the featured singer, who is so fabulous, it's hard to put into words, and then we were off to the plaza and to Figlio's for a fabulous brunch. We watched the air show for a while, then took my mama to the airport. My dad and I hung out for a while, then he took me to a bike shop to get my bike fixed. I wish I could get a picture of my bike, but it's a 50's style, one speed, fabulous Monarck bike.It's sort of like this one in the picture, but it's not exactly like that. I think it was a reddish color, now it's sort of an orange color. So anyway, it is the quintessential fag bike. I've also heard it called the pee wee herman bike. Whatev. So I got two new pedals and a light for my bike..early birthday present he said. Then he watched some t.v. at my place for a while and then took off. Ricky got home late, and I missed him. I bought the bike for \\$35 in Chicago and I brought it back to KC only a couple of months ago. I have a couple of other things that I left in Chicago too, at my old apartment. I have my record player, with all of my fabulous records. Apparently the Gina, my old bartender friend from across the street from the old apartment, still has the keys that I gave him when I left Chicago, so hopefully there is still a chance that I might recover some of those old records. I know that there is still some other stuff that I left when I moved, but I don't know what exactly is there. Gina told me that all my shit is still down in the basement of that apartment.

Friday, August 17, 2001

The day before the Mindy and George show

Good Morning Libra! - You might be starting to get a little tired of taking care of your friends and having to deal with all their problems. If others have continued to take advantage of you, you might find it a little difficult to restrain your resentment today. It might be a good time to think about taking back control and setting some boundaries right now.

So anyway, there's not much to report today, my parents are coming that should actually be fun. I've been looking forward to that, and for them to see my life in Kansas City for a while now. I had a great conversation with a long lost friend last night. I talked with Jen great to talk with her! She's getting married in October and invited me to come, so Richard and I will attend her wedding in Chicago in October. Oh my god, I was just looking on this site, and there is an transcript of intervention of Jenna and Barbara Bush at Camp David and it is so hysterical. Go and read it, but then come back! I thought that this was pretty amazing it's the human genome project, and each color represents one of the four chemical components of human DNA. So amazing, I don't pretend to understand it all, but what it boils down to, is everyone is made up of the same thing, so all this racism, and hatred, and bigotry is such a learned behavior, and so baseless, especially after we learn about this type of science. Oh my god I am going to scream. I just bought this t-shirt online, and it's the first thing that I've ever bought online; it's from

The front says

"You Make Jesus Vomit"

and the back says

"God, the universe's most finicky eater says: So then, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will vomit you out of my mouth: Revelation: 3:16"

and I'm going to scream, because it's going to make me laugh so hard. I usually don't make rash purchases like that, but it made me laugh so hard when I saw it online, that I can't imagine what the reaction will be when I wear it out in public! I love wearing stuff like that. I love wearing my serong in in downtown Kansas City, because the reaction of the general public is so fantastic, it makes me wear it more and more and more, and I think the same thing is going to happen with this t-shirt! So I've been corresponding with the author of this fabulous website and he has put me on his links page...I feel so honored! Whatever! I put his link on my links page as well. It's all about spreading the love around the internet, that's what I say. Let's disseminate my page to every possible venue there is.God bless America....whatever

Here is a sample of some of Betty Bowers stuff. So hysterical. Well, that's it for me today my little pretty(s). My parents are coming in this weekend, so I'll report from the front lines when I get back to a computer on Monday. Have a good weekend, don't drink too much, then again.....what the fuck am I talking parents are in town.

Thursday, August 16, 2001

2 days and counting till the George and Mindy show arrive

Good Morning Libra! It's a good time to try to come up with some new plans and ideas about how to improve your professional prospects right now. Then, decide what is no longer of any use to you at work and toss it out in favor of something new. Don't be afraid to bring a positive new approach to work today.

I am just going to say this, and maybe it's because I am more sensitive to this issue, but whatever. At work, there is a woman in Dallas who's son in law was struck by lighting and was promptly killed. He was like 18 or something. So this happened about two weeks ago, and there was an email that went around discussing visitation and services and all of that. I got the email, and was hearbroken, as I'm sure everyone was. So there's an employee here who asked me if the Kansas City office was going to take up a collection for her, and I said that I didn't know anything about it, but if he wanted, I could send out an email and ask everyone in KC to contribute, as the woman didn't have any insurance for the boys funeral expenses. So here I am writing this email, to every single Data Management employee. I've only done this once before, and that occasion was sort of funny, but I want to tie it all in somehow. The last time I had to email all the permenent employees in my department (there are about 160 in KC) there were boxes delivered to my desk for everyone...they were free gifts for everyone. So I sent out the email saying "there is a free gift for every employee....come to my desk at your convienence and pick them up". Seriously....not two minutes after I sent that email, there were fourteen people at my desk asking me "where's the free stuff?" I'm not even exaggerating. Thank god I sent that out late in the day, because all the employees picked up their gift, and it was sort of amusing. I likened them to vultures. So my POINT in telling you this story is that, when I sent out this most recent email to all the employees (both permanent AND contractor's....67 contractors + 160 permanent) about the funeral expenses, what do you think happened? Of course, nothing. I have not received ONE fucking response to that email. It just gives me a big ol bad taste in my mouth, and I realize that it's not MY fault, I just...I don't even want to think about it, but I for sure, am going to contribute, even though I have a new car to buy, and a $500 deposit for our Europe trip that's late already. This is not really related, but I was watching public television last night, and saw this amazing show on Dying, called "On Our Own Terms: Moyers on Dying", with Bill Moyers. Astounding series. It was discussing how people prepare, and then again don't prepare for the whole process of dying, and how people are now really paying attention to the process.

Journalist Bill Moyers presents the intimate, end-of-life journeys of more than a dozen individuals, as they and their families struggle to balance medical intervention with comfort and dignity as they face death, in the four-part series.

I was just sitting there in stunned silence, watching this episode last night, because we just went through this whole process with Richard's mother, and it just hit way to close to home. I have yet to write anything about that. I think it's just too soon, but I plan on writing about it, it was one of the most amazing experiences of my life.

Wednesday, August 15, 2001

Budgets may be stretched

Wednesday, August 15, 2001 Budgets may be stretched and the doom and gloom advocates in your environment delight in making things worse than they really are. Begin creating a harmonious environment by being frank with needy, overly dramatic relatives and conclude by offering your help. Express yourself and declare your feelings with a hint of compassion. Leave accusations out of the discussion. You'll maintain your dignity and improve communication with loved ones

Well that is certainly interesting. That is actually my numerology report for today. Apparently I'm a 7, whatever that means. Well as you may have seen or noticed already, I have totally revamped my entirejournal page, to give me better access to specific days. I think this will help me viewing it on WebTV, because that's all we STILL have at home. I am going to buy this damm car on Monday, after work, and finally get that over with. I'll have a chrysler, I forget the model, but it's a cute little car. My parents come in on saturday morning, and they'll be here (well not here, as in our home, but in KC) for the weekend, my mom will take off on sunday, and my dad will stay the week in OPKS! I love The West Wing! even though it's a RERUN!

After a foreign terrorist is caught at the border with explosives, Bartlet (Martin Sheen) ponders the impact of ordering a heightened security alert for the nation's airports while an exasperated Toby (Richard Schiff) is shocked to learn of the President's secret affliction with multiple sclerosis -- and he details its political and legal ramifications. In other White House corridors, Sam (Rob Lowe) and Josh (Bradley Whitford) try to punch up an upcoming presidential speech with snappy one-liners while Josh jousts with Donna (Janel Moloney) over many contentious subjects, including the exact start date of her employment. In addition, Sam and Ainsley (Emily Procter) fuss over the 14th Amendment and equal rights for women. John Spencer, Allison Janney and Dule Hill also star.

WOO HOO HOO HOOO>..I just got Jeff's confirmation that he is coming up for my birthday, he sent me this itinerary for his travel! I'm so excited!

Tuesday, August 14, 2001

Countdown to the travelling George and Mindy Show

Good Morning Libra!

Libra (Sept. 23-Oct. 22): Today is an 8. Reach out and make new friends. You could have a job that requires you to jet all over the globe.

This is an email that I got from a friend.... I couldn't believe it when I read it. Talk about a stroke. I'm not complaining, I love emails like this, stroke it baby! [Editors note from 2010: I think this is from Lisa Hopkins who turned out to be completely insane on a trip that my friend Robert and I took with her in 2007 to Washington D.C. I don't know if I've ever written about that but this sparks some crazy memories of that whench]

I just checked out your new site... I love it.. and then I thought. what the hell.. I'll check out all of the new goings on in your web page... Everytime I read it I find new reasons to absolutely adore you. You are such a gifted, thinking, inspirational human being and each time I see where your heart is via your journal pages and your active interest in our world.. it helps me to find even more love in my heart space for you. Just thought you ought to know. I'm not one to hold back anymore how I feel.. Life's too short.... each and every life I've had ;)
CONGRATULATIONS! on the birth of your new NEICE... I stand corrected.. I hadn't checked into the pages for awhile so I hadn't gotten the full scoop. How exciting to have a new angel to bear your family name and be part of a loving circle of people. I read the e-mails from you Mom.. she sounds like a wonderful soul to me. I appreciate the pictures of Richard's Mom. Beautiful. I'm so glad I checked in. Life threw me a detour today and I just went with it. I should be studying but I'm packed full of information and I'd rather sit with a hot beverage and look into the life of a dear friend. Wow...lots of growth happening for you.

I couldn't agree with her more! So I talked to my mom yesterday, and the plans are pretty much in place. My parents are flying in on Saturday morning, they are going to their hotel, and then coming right to our townhouse to hang out with us. I think we'll probably cook out, or maybe go to dinner on the plaza, and hang out for a while, then go to church on Sunday morning, then go to brunch afterwards with Chris and Aubrey and Lisa. Then my mom flies out on Sunday afternoon, and my dad stays, because next week, he is working for Sprint, in OPKS, so he'll be here the whole week. I've also been working on the show for the Hope Cares center. Sing out Louise! I have just confirmed that I will have a meeting there next Wednesday. Cool! I am terribly excited about this! This is so funny, I heard this on NPR this morning, but I just saw on MSNBC: it's the story about Barbie and how this artist won over the corporation

U.S. DISTRICT COURT Judge Ronald Lew ruled on Monday that the free speech rights of Utah artist Tom Forsythe — who was sued by Mattel two years ago after he parodied Barbie dolls in a series of photographs meant as a stinging social comment — outweigh the company’s trademarks and intellectual property rights as they relate to the 42-year-old doll. “The ruling doesn’t mean it’s open season (to exploit products by) Mattel, it means there is a certain amount of breathing room for artists who want to use a commercial symbol that has tremendous cultural meaning, for purposes of artistic expression,” Forsythe’s attorney Simon Frankel said.

Adrian Pruetz, an attorney for Mattel, was not immediately available for comment. Forsythe’s limited edition photographs were taken in 1998 and use Barbie in an attempt to skewer the stereotyping of women and commodification of female bodies.

A MULTITUDE OF BARBIES Exhibited several times in the Western United States and offered for sale on Forsythe’s Web site (, they depict, among other images, a “Missionary Barbie,” unclothed on her back with an electric beater pointed towards her body in a suggestive way; “Barbie Enchiladas,” naked Barbies wrapped in a tortillas, covered with tomato sauce, and lying in a baking pan; a ”Heatwave” Barbie who reclines in a toaster oven, a “Malted Barbie,” who peeks demurely out of a milkshake machine, and ”Blue Ice” Barbie, who poses nude in a martini glass. Although they may be offensive to some Barbie fans, the photos nevertheless are allowable under “fair use” laws because they do not constitute commercial use of the Barbie or affect Mattel’s sales, Lew ruled. NO TRADEMARK INFRINGEMENT

In addition, Lew said that Forsythe was not violating trademark law with his Barbie art because Mattel was not able to sufficiently prove that he created confusion among customers over Barbie’s true nature as a child’s toy or that his product constituted a “commercial” rather than “expressive” use of the Barbie doll. Legal experts called the ruling a “blow” to Mattel and other corporations that routinely sue artists who attempt to use their symbols in creative expression. “People are aware of the issue of censorship but they are not very sensitized to [widespread] corporate censorship that’s out there limiting artistic expression,” said Forsythe’s lead counsel, Annette Hurst, who took on the case pro bono and will now try to recover legal fees from Mattel. NO DAMAGES
“The intellectual property laws do not grant corporations the right to control all artistic speech concerning the role of products and corporations in our society,” Hurst said. There are no monetary damages to be paid, and unless Mattel decides to appeal Monday’s judgment will mark the end of the case. Forsythe is now trying to raise money to cover his costs. In terms of his art he said he is moving onto other subject matter: “I’m not the first person to parody Barbie, and I’m sure I won’t be the last.”

Oh for the love of all things christian, I have been talking with Anne (Linda) Lavin, and I am still amazed at how she makes me laugh. She is sort of in a bad situation with her personal life, which I certainly won't report on here, but she's a trooper, and I have to give credit where credit is due. She is still one of the most unique individuals I have ever known. Smart as a whip (but her younger sister, is WAY more smart than her!!)

Monday, August 13, 2001

The day my dream comes true!

Libra (Sept. 23-Oct. 22): Today is an 8. All of a sudden you're raring to go. Too bad it's Monday. The one thing you're not interested in is work.

This is an email from the woman from the Care center, where I am going to be performing with Richard. We have set a date yet, but I am so excited about this, I can hardly even contain it!

Hi Bill:

Just to let you know...the paino is tuned and ready for you and Richard. Your friend John Y was great and he played for the residents...who left everyhting they were doing to listen to him. Can you imagine how excited they will be about you and Richard doing your thing.

The center is ready for you whenever you are set to go. Your contact person is _______ _______ and she is waiting for the call.

We thought that 6:30 in the evening would be the best time for all concerned. You can work out all the details with her.

I will be out of town for a week. Don't let that stop you from going forward. ____ and you can work everyhting out from here. I will keep in touch as I plan to be at the center to hear you whenever I can.

We are all so excited about this my friend.

Well I don't know if I ever have explained this whole story on this website, so I guess I'll go ahead and tell the story. So it was really late on a Sunday night, and I was flipping around the channels to find something to watch, and I finally wound up on In The Life which is a gay/lesbian tv show, that shows people all around the world, and showcases talents, and just pretty much just profiles people. So I was watching this episode and they were profiling people from the organization LifeBeat and the performers that sing and perform for AIDS patients in the New York area. This is what the website says about that specific story

LIFEbeat's Hearts & Voices is a music industry not-for-profit program which organizes volunteer musical performances for people with HIV and AIDS. ITL interviews performer Ennis Smith in Singing For Life, to find out what has led him to this venue

So I had the thought, why in the hell doesn't Kansas City have something like that, and if they DO, I would like to get involved in that organization, and if they don't, then I would like to start something at perhaps a smaller scale. So Richard was playing this benefit concert for the Hope Cares center, and I just happened to be talking about my idea to her, and she was so enthusiastic about the idea, and the email above, is my latest correspondence with her. This is one of those things that I am so excited about, I can hardly speak of it. Another thing that I am so excited about is my new neice Madeline. My mom told me, and you can see from the pictures, that she has a full head of jet black hair, which is sort of funny because both Thom and Sue are quite fair in their coloring. I love them both, they are such a great couple, and I love Sue so much, I am so proud to have her as my sister in law. I am going to start crying if I keep on talking about this, so I'll just stop. Okay, breathe! The other thing I am sort of excited about is my being accepted as a "reporter" from this great site, called Reporting I somehow came across that site, and thought it was one of the coolest sites that I had seen in a while, it's just a bunch of people's personal journals from around the world, and so I asked if I could "report from" Kansas City, and I just got an email over the weekend that said yes, so now I'm all set up there. You can go and see my writings there at That way, I'll be able to keep a journal there, and here, and link to either one from the other. I hope that will give me a bit more traffic to my personal site as well! So on Friday night, Richard and I went to dinner at this Thai resteraunt up by our house, which was so amazingly fabulous, we both loved it. Then we went to go see the movie The Others which I thought was an astounding movie. I thought the exact same thing as Richard, when I saw the trailor for the movie, and I thought, oohh...that could either be a really good movie, or just a really really bad movie, but the way it turned out, it was fabulous. The way they worked the ending was very clever, and it turned out to be quite an entertaining movie.

On the secluded Isle of Jersey in the final days of World War II, a young woman waits in vain for her beloved husband to return from the front. Grace (Nicole Kidman) has been raising her two young children alone in her beautiful, cavernous Victorian mansion, the one place she believes them to be safe. But they are not safe. Not anymore. When a new trio of servants arrives to replace the crew that inexplicably disappeared, startling events begin to unfold. Grace's daughter reveals she has been seeing and talking with unexplained apparitions that come and go in every room of the house. At first, Grace refuses to believe in her children's scary sightings, but soon, she too begins to sense an intruder is at large. Who is there? And what do they want from Grace's family? In order to find out, Grace must abandon everything in which she believes and enter the otherworldly heart of the supernatural.

I thought the movie was not necessarily brilliant, but quite good. On Saturday, Richard had a bunch of rehearsals all through the day. In the morning, he was with the ladies who are doing some little show, I forget what it's called. Then in the afternoon he was with "Working" so I utilized that time, and late-afternoon/night to work on the "Hope Cares" project. I have a much better idea of what I want to perform for that event now. I made a rehearsal tape for Richard and I, and I outlined what I wanted to do. Fabulous, it's all coming together brilliantly.

Friday, August 10, 2001

The details on Madeline Rosen!

Libra (Sept. 23-Oct 22): Today is a 7. The game has been going so fast this week, you may not have had time to keep score. Figure out what you won and lost, and how to allocate your profits. Make a shopping list, too.

Madi has arrived
As many of you are already aware, Madi arrived today at 3:01 pm (08/09/01)Both mom and baby are doing well, and dad couldn't sound more proud or excited.

Here are Madi's vital stats:
9 lbs 5 oz
21 inches
head full of black hair

Isn't that just a hoot? My dad was joking with me, after he told me about Madi's full head of BLACK hair, that it was funny that she had a head of black hair, because both Thom and Sue are very blond, so they didn't know where the blond came from. How exciting is this? So I am an uncle for the third time!

So enough about that, more about ME! God, isn't that egotistical or me? Well...yeah...I guess...but isn't that what this whole website is about? ME for me? You know, I find more and more in my life, that I am just getting old. Thank god I have someone to go through these years with. I just talked with my old friend Anne who I went to high school with, and it was such a hoot. She was talking about her sister, who is now in college, and entertaining all these boys, and having all these relations with boys, and it's like I used to know Susan when she was a little baby, and now she's getting her roast beef curtains marinated. For the love of all things christian....what is happening? Also, I got a big of information on Anne from Dave that I certainly can't repeat on THIS website, because god knows who reads this, but ANNE YOU KNOW WHAT I'M TALKING ABOUT DONT YOU?of course she does. So anyway, it's just so crazy, I feel like my life is going so well, I am about to buy this new car, and be so fabulous in the chrysler. I have been thinking about domain names to, and williamkeilrosen, just doesn't set me on fire, so I want something else, somthing funky, and I have thought about somethings, but I dont want to publish them on here, because you know how fast domain names go these days! Anne and I were talking about how (and I have this with more and more frequency) that I have a million briliant ideas in my head, and when it comes time to output them out of my head, I can never do it with any clarity whatsoever. Dammit. So I just spent 38:04 minutes on the phone with Anne, and it was so great to talk with her, she is so GAY! No, she's living large up in Gurnee, Illinois...right up by Great America. So, we talked about gossip, and about our family's and her insane parents, and the such. Great fun. I just hope she's going to try and get david to come up to Kansas City like she said she was going to!

August 10, 2001 02:13 PM ET
WASHINGTON (Reuters) - Dozens of U.S. and British warplanes using guided missiles and bombs attacked three air defense sites in southern Iraq on Friday in a raid targeting Baghdad's increasingly sophisticated air defense network, the Pentagon said. "About 50 coalition warplanes, 20 of which were strike aircraft, hit three targets. All aircraft returned safely to bases," Pentagon spokesman Bryan Whitman told Reuters. The jets struck an air defense control center that uses fiber-optic communications cables to integrate Iraq's air defenses, an anti-aircraft missile site and a long-range radar station, all located southeast of Baghdad in a southern "no-fly" zone. A spokesman for the Iraqi Army's air defense division told the Iraqi News Agency the attack killed one Iraqi and injured 11. The spokesman said that the targets had been civilian facilities in Wassit and Thi Qar provinces, 110 and 190 miles southeast of Baghdad respectively. Pentagon spokesman Whitman and officials at the British Defense Ministry in London said the strike occurred at 5:30 a.m. Washington time and about midday Iraqi time. A British official said the targets were hit and that exact damage was being assessed. The attack, similar to a major raid against the same defenses in February, followed stepped-up efforts by Iraqi President Saddam Hussein's military this year to shoot down U.S. and British warplanes that have been policing no-fly zones in northern and southern Iraq since the 1991 Gulf War. No western warplanes have been shot down over the years. But Defense Secretary Donald Rumsfeld said in a recent news conference that Iraq was improving its air defenses "both quantitatively and qualitatively" with fiber-optic communications cabling. "SELF-DEFENSE" STRIKE "The main aim of the strike was to protect our aircraft and our pilots -- and obviously the way you do that is to degrade his (Saddam's) ability to target and hit us. Our focus and our reason for the strike was a self-defense measure," said Army Col. Rick Thomas, a spokesman for the U.S. Central Command in Tampa, Florida.

that's just fucking great. This President is going to get us in a war, I can feel it. He's going to piss some weird, off the map country off, and they're going to come over and bomb the white house or something. Fucking idiots. I hate George W. Bush. Let's just be real clear here people. He's a bastard, and deserves to be the president of the local chamber of fucking commerce, not the president of the goddammed united states.

Thursday, August 9, 2001

The day that the Rosen family welcomes a new addition!

Libra (Sept. 23-Oct. 22): Today is a 7. Let your partner take the lead while you whisper instructions. You'll win the dance competition, or the Oscar, or whatever it is that you're after.

There's really not much to report, at least in the beginning of the day today. Just when you think that, a new BABY comes in the picture! I am going to go see that Chrysler that what's his name from the chorus is selling, I just have a really good feeling about it, and I think that I'll probably wind up buying it from him. I just have to get my finances in order, to get organized, so I can pay him. I think that they are in order, I just have to organize them myself, on paper. I get paid on friday, thank you jesus, and then I'll be in a much better position to pay, or make payments. I talked with the George and Mindy show last night, and they are getting increasingly excited about taking their show on the road to Kansas City. (for people who are wondering who I'm talking about, the George and Mindy show is my parents; I've referred to them many times as the George and Mindy I just use that as a default phrase, and it cracks me, as well as them up.) So they are coming the weekend of the 18th of August, so that's coming up very quickly. I also made my skydiving reservation for the 20th of October as well, I am terribly excited about that, to be able to jump out of the plane again. I am going to do the tandem jump now, where you go with the instructor, and you go up to 10,000 feet, instead of the jump I did last time, where you go by yourself, and you go only to 3-4,000 feet. I am totally excited. Just typing that makes me totally excited. This is what the website says:

It's up to 9,500 feet with your instructor for a dual parachute jump. After a 35 second freefall at speeds 120 - 150 mph you will have a 5 to 7 minute parachute decent. You will have the option of activating the parachute system yourself. Whether you pull the cord yourself of leave it up to one of our licensed professional, you'll love the experience of modern day skydiving.

I think we have a baby!

Greetings Friends of Thom, Sue and (soon-to-be) Madi, The expectant parents are at the hospital. Sue started having contractions last night at 3am and they checked into the hospital around 7. They broke Sue's water around 8:30. She's at 3+ centimeters. So it looks like today is going to be Madi's birthday! So send your thoughts and prayers for a speedy delivery Sue's way and hopefully you'll receive an update to this info sooner rather then later (at least for Sue's sake). -Andrea (Sue's sister)
P.S. They are at Prentiss Womens Hospital (part of Northwestern Memorial Hospital) in Chicago.

Woo hoo, so this is the first report of the new baby! Hopefully I'll get some more updates up on here soon enough! I just got finished with the Dalai Lama's book "Ethics for a New Millenium" and it was one of the most amazing books I've read in a long time, and also made me much more aware of the plight of the Tibetan people. Here is an excerpt from the book:

Consider the following. We humans are social beings. We come into the world as the result of others’ actions. We survive here in dependence on others. Whether we like it or not, there is hardly a moment of our lives when we do not benefit from others’ activities. For this reason it is hardly surprising that most of our happiness arises in the context of our relationships with others. Nor is it so remarkable that our greatest joy should come when we are motivated by concern for others. But that is not all. We find that not only do altruistic actions bring about happiness but they also lessen our experience of suffering. Here I am not suggesting that the individual whose actions are motivated by the wish to bring others’ happiness necessarily meets with less misfortune than the one who does not. Sickness, old age, mishaps of one sort or another are the same for us all. But the sufferings which undermine our internal peace anxiety, doubt, disappointment these things are definitely less. In our concern for others, we worry less about ourselves. When we worry less about ourselves an experience of our own suffering is less intense. What does this tell us? Firstly, because our every action has a universal dimension, a potenial impact on others’ happiness, ethics are necessary as a means to ensure that we do not harm others. Secondly, it tells us that genuine happiness consists in those spiritual qualities of love, compassion, patience, tolerance and forgiveness and so on. For it is these which provide both for our happiness and others’ happiness. - His Holiness, The Dalai Lama"
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Friends of Tibet

On sort of a funny note, I just read this news report:

Kitten Survives 20-Minute Spin in Washing Machine COPENHAGEN (Reuters)
- A kitten which jumped into a washing machine unnoticed by its owner survived a 20-minute tumble in piping hot water, a Danish paper reported on Wednesday. ``He was screaming but I could not open the machine,'' owner Bianca Marten said. When she finally got three-month-old Sylvester out of the washer he was dizzy and blue from lack of oxygen. The temperature of the water was 70 degrees Celsius (158.00F) during his ordeal, the tabloid B.T. said. Sylvester recovered after treatment at a veterinary clinic in western Denmark. But apparently he has still not learned his lesson as he jumped straight back into the washing machine on returning home. ``Now I will always check he is not there before starting my washing machine,'' Marten said.

Wednesday, August 8, 2001

I think we may have found a winner!

Libra - You should be making slow but steady progress with a relationship matter right now. But you still might not be sure whether or not a particular person shares your perspective. And some other people around you could still have some personal issues that need to be dealt with. Just remember that you can't always control everything.

So I got an email back from the broadcast email I sent out to the chorus, asking for help with my car situation. I think I may have found a winner!

Dear Bill, I have a 1983 Chrysler that runs very well that I'm considering selling. The vehicle has about 85 K miles on it. The car is nothing fancy, but it has provided my mom with great transportation through the years. It's one of those cars you hear about that are driven to the grocery store, church and the hairdressers and that's about it. The A/C in the car is not working and my mom just decided to get another vehicle rather than spend the money on getting the A/C fixed. If you're interested in the car, you can contact me at my work number below from 8-4:30 M-F, or reply to this. I'm asking 750.00 for the vehicle.

So I will arrange to go and check that out, because that just sounds too good to be true. What's fixing air conditioning these days? You just get it charged, and that's it! Fun! So that's a good start to today. Another great email from my Sue:

Just got back from the Doc and he said..."any day". All the tests show the baby is fine and is estimated to be somewhere in the 8 lbs range (of course this range has a span of 1.5 lbs either way...yikes!). So our next step(s)..we scheduled another appointment for a week from today and if she does not arrive by then we will then set up a day to induce ! We were told that most first time births on average are 5 days over due...which would make Monday B-DAY and only 7% of all babies go to 2 weeks(again I think this is low due to inducments)
We will do the best to keep you all updated on progress towards Madi's arrival. Thanks again for all the care and interest you all have had with the birth of our first. It is somewhat overwhelming to Thom & I on how many people are as excited and anxious as we are for Madeline to arrive!
Hope all is well with all of you!
Also, FYI due to the fact that I have not legally changed my name to ROSEN (ok it has only been two years), Madi and I will be registered at the hospital under my Maiden name "ECKL" not ROSEN. For those who are alarmed by this please be rest assured ROSEN is what will appear on the birth certificate and will be Madi's last name legally! And yes, this is on my list of things to do while I am on maternity leave!

This is so exciting! I'll keep this journal updated as soon as I possibly can with details, but as of 8/8/01, that is what I know for sure!.

I just got an email on my hotmail account, and it sort of freaked me out, because it had an 'incurable' virus, and I dont' know if it was just a general email, but it was addressed to me personally, so I don't know what's going on! This is the email if you get something from this person....DELETE IT quickly, without looking at it!
From : "Norman Repp"
To :
Subject : Norman Floyd Repp
Date : Wed, 8 Aug 2001 08:36:36 -0600

and this was the virus

Attachment : NormanFloydRepp..AProfile.doc.lnk (215k)

So be careful and delete that shit, if you get it. I should send that email to the FBI or something, tell them that that person is disseminating virses over the internet. I should have sent it to the National Infrastructure Protection Center, from their website:

The National Infrastructure Protection Center (NIPC) serves as a national critical infrastructure threat assessment, warning, vulnerability, and law enforcement investigation and response entity. The NIPC provides timely warnings of international threats, comprehensive analysis and law enforcement investigation and response.

They are the ones who are handling that 'code red' virus, very recently. It's amazing what people send around the damm internet. Another amazing thing that I am never NOT astounded by is the amount of satellites in orbit around the Earth, and the amount of imagery that you can obtain, with just a few clicks of your mouse. There is an amazing picture of downtown Chicago that I've downloaded from, and a great picture of Molokai in Hawaii that is from NASA sites. Another picture, not necessarily a satellite picture but an aeriel picture of the Sprint campus in Overland Park, KS; where I work. So cool!

I just read this news report concerning Prince William, and le Queen

Wednesday, August 8 8:12 AM SGT Anthrax bombers threaten Prince William:
- Scottish separatists have threatened to kill Queen Elizabeth II's grandson Prince William with the deadly anthrax bio-warfare agent, British press reported Wednesday. The campaign against Prince William has been launched by separatists who warned they could carry out the attack when he goes to St Andrews University, in Scotland, in the autumn, according to the Daily Express. The newspaper said Scottish National Liberation Army (SNLA) activists already claim to have sent a bogus anthrax bomb to the university less than two months before the 19-year-old prince is due to start his four-year course. Although the device was harmless, it included a type-written note marked with a codeword and the warning: "This is anthrax", the newspaper said. Sources at the SNLA claim the anthrax hoax was posted in England on August The group told the Daily Express: "The bio-scare will act as a reminder to the British State that the SNLA can strike at will, and that we have eyes and ears within the university. "We can kill William, should he attend, and we will." The militants have targeted the university, the oldest in Scotland, because they are incensed at the idea that an English heir to the throne should study there. Formed in 1980 in response to "mass English immigration", the group has spent years making hoax bomb threats to blow up Queen Elizabeth and her daughter Princess Anne. However, it has never taken direct action. The university and Fife police Tuesday night denied any knowledge of a package being sent to the university, according to the newspaper.

Okay, this is completely seperate from what I've been talking about today, but yesterday, as you can read above, I was talking about CHRISTIAN BULLSHIT that pervades our newspapers. This is a quote from Reuters:

The morning began with a prayer, and Bush bent his head and clasped his hands. "I want to thank you Lord for a president that is willing to stand up and declare biblical principles on a daily basis for our nation," said Joe Carbajal, pastor of the Windy Hills Multidenominational Church.

when George W. Bush was at a Habitat for Humanity site in Texas. Now, mind you, I don't have ANY problem with the whole "Habitat for Humanity" idea, nor do I have a problem with people saying prayers, nor do I have a problem with the President going to volunteer his time for a good cause like that, it's just this idea of the Bible, and Christianity in general pervading the highest office of this country. What CRAP! I realize that the President is a man, but the "presidenCY" is not, and there should be no mention of Bible bullshit anywhere near government.

Who the fuck do these christian idiots think they are?

I sometimes, really hate this country. Yea, it's great, we're free and all that, but for the love of God, we have a President who is an IDIOT, who shouldn't even BE the president. Oh yea, that brings me to another tangent. Richard gets home last night and we took a trip to Quik Trip because I wanted him to experience the Honda, that I was borrowing/possibly buying. So anyway, on the way back we were stopped at the light and were TOTALLY harrassed by these two guys who yelled out their window to us: "GORE in 2000!! YEAH RIGHT" which, for a second, I didn't understand. Then I remembered that this Honda had a rainbow "Gore in 2000" sticker on the back bumper. So I said to the guy "Are you trying to be cute, or just insulting...I can't tell which one" then the other guy said "oh....insulting...insulting. So I just tore off, and didn't reply to them. I think they were drunk, and obviously republican women hating/gay hating/stupid-ass republican FUCKERS!
Gosh, I seem to be on sort of a soap box on this journal lately. But good for ME!

Tuesday, August 7, 2001

Transportation Issues abounding

Libra - You'll probably want to think about having a little fun with some of your friends today. But you might also be giving some thought to a few of your goals or aspirations right now, and you might decide that you really don't care too much about what other people think. Just make sure that you've chosen some worthwhile goals for yourself.

So that is good. I've been quite historically good about listening to myself, and not worrying about the opinions of others when it comes to my own personal voice. I'd like to think that I can make sound decisions on my own, although sometimes I take into consideration other opinions, but for the most part, I 'march to the beat of my own drummer' as Richard says. So I've borrowed Randy Hite's little Honda, to see if I want to buy it or not, and it's very interesting, I'll just say that. It's a little honda accord, it's like an 83 or something, but it's the little crx model or whatever, so it's this little thing. So the way that we would handle this is that Randy would donate it to the chorus, and then I would buy it from the chorus, so I'm just driving it around to see if I want to buy it, I am just not sure yet. I think it will last a couple of months, but do I want to buy something for just a couple of months, and thats it? I am just not sure about this whole ordeal. On a completely different tangent, I received an email from Dayvid regarding Bjork's upcoming concert in's so fascinating!
I also added a bunch of information on the music page

Subject: BJORK. Also, LE ROI D'YS.
Date : Mon, 6 Aug 2001 17:42:21 EDT
To commemorate the release of her upcoming album, "Vespertine"

(coming out at the end of this month), she will be performing at the LYRIC OPERA HOUSE with a full choir and a 50-something piece orchestra... following that, she will be playing a smaller show (venue TBA) in Chicago, seating less than 300 people, with *no microphone*--just her natural voice filling the room. I could just cream.

I also got another "The LIST" email, and I want to keep up to date with those: To save space, I've added it to my Matthew Shepard/political activism page, feel free to check it out. I love getting those udpates, it helps me keep YOU up to date on political issues. Obviously, it's this one guy's angle on these issues, but he works for the Washington Post for christ sakes, so you have to think that it has to be at least a little legitimate. I have learned to be quite skeptical of the news organizations, especially the local ones. I was going to put a link to, but it's widely known, is the Kansas City Star....they are HORRIBLE! Richard and I were just discussing how religious that paper is, and how nothing but W.A.S.P. gets covered, and it's just not right. Richard was trying to say that it's very difficult to NOT have bias when you're reporting the news, but for christ's sake, the Kansas City Star is one of the worst major local papers I have ever read, their editorials, and regular columns are just nothing but christian based bullshit, and I refuse to support that organization. Whew! I had to get that off my chest. I just hate that. So anyway my brother Thom called me on my cell phone last night, and we just sort of touched base for a while. His wife, Sue is very very pregnant, so we have another addition to the Rosen family coming very soon. It could be sooner than we expect, it's like....any day now. Thom said that they are going to the doctor tonight, and then they'll know much more about when the actual due date is, but from what he said, she is ready to pop that baby out sooner rather than later! That's so exciting, I can't wait to go visit them, and see their baby! I am pretty sure that they know that it's a girl, and her name is going to be Madeline. How exciting!

Monday, August 6, 2001

Oh, the places you'll go!

Libra - Try not to get too tense or stressed-out if you find yourself frustrated in your efforts to make progress today. You might be feeling a bit overwhelmed by small details and endless interruptions right now. But try not to let yourself get defensive, impatient or argumentative. Many of these little problems should be resolved before long.

Oh, the Places You'll Go!

by: Dr. Seuss.

Congratulations! Today is your day. You're off to great places! You're off and away!
You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself any direction you choose. You're on your own.
And you know what you know. And YOU are the one who'll decide where to go.

You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed.
You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead.
Wherever you fly, you'll be best of the best.
Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.

Except when you don't. Because, sometimes, you won't.
I'm sorry to say so but, sadly it's true that Bang-ups and Hang-ups can happen to you.
You can get all hung up in a prickle-ly perch. And your gang will fly on.
You'll be left in a Lurch.

You'll come down from the Lurch with an unpleasant bump.
And the chances are then that you'll be in a slump.
And when you're in a Slump, you're not in for much fun.
Un-slumping yourself is not easily done.

You will come to a place where the streets are not marked.
Some windows are lighted. But mostly they're darked.
A place you could sprain both your elbow and chin!
Do you dare to stay out? Do you dare to go in?
How much can you lose? How much can you win?
And IF you go in, should you turn left or right...or right-and-three-quarters?
Or, maybe, not quite?
Or go around back and sneak in from behind?
Simple it's not, I'm afraid you will find, for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.

You can get so confused that you'll start to race down long wiggled roads at a break-necking pace
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space, headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.

The Waiting Place...

For people just waiting.
Waiting for a train to go or a bus to come, or a plane to go,
or the mail to come, or the rain to go or the phone to ring,
or the snow to snow, or waiting around for a Yes or No,
or waiting for their hair to grow.
Everyone is just waiting.
Waiting for the fish to bite or waiting for wind to fly a kite
or waiting around for Friday night or waiting, perhaps,for
their Uncle Jake, or a pot to boil, or a Better Break
or a string of pearls, or a pair of pants or a wig with curls, or Another Chance.
Everyone is just waiting.

NO! That's not for you! Somehow you'll escape all that waiting and staying.
You'll find the bright places where Boom Bands are playing.

Oh, the places you'll go!
There is fun to be done! There are points to be scored.
There are games to be won. And the magical things you can do with a ball will make you the winning-est winner of all.
You'll be famous as famous can be, with the whole wide world watching you win on TV.
Except when they don't. Because, sometimes, they won't. I'm afraid that some times you'll play lonely games too.
Games you can't win 'cause YOU'LL play against you.

And when you're alone, there's a very good chance you'll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.
There are some, down the road between hither and yon, that can scare you so much you won't want to go on.

But on you will go though the weather be foul. On you will go though your enemies prowl.
On you will go though the Hakken-Kraks howl.
Onward up many a frightening creek, though your arms may get sore and your sneakers may leak.
On and on you will hike.
And I know you'll hike far and face up to your problems whatever they are.

And will you succeed? Yes! You will, indeed! (98 and 3/4 percent guaranteed.)
Kid, you'll move mountains. your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Bray or Mordecai Ali Van Allen O'Shea, you're off to great places!
Today is your day! Your mountain is waiting.
So...get on your way!

So anyway, I just thought that I'd put that in my journal, because it has such a great message of hope, and of inspiration. I could very easily tangent on that, but I'll leave it alone, and try and re-cap what my weekend was. On Friday night, Richard and Lisa and I went out to the bar, and got more than a little drunk. We were sitting at the bar, drinking chocolate martini's, and then various other kinds of martini's, and before you know it, we are just drunk as skunks. Needless to say, I spent the good part of Saturday, flat on my back reeling from the pain of the hangover. Richard doesn't get hangovers, which is amazing to me. He gets drunk from the vanilla extract in a cookie, and yet doesn't get the slightest amount of a hangover. WHATEV! So sunday, was church and then I went with Richard to the auditions for the play that he is music directing this month, called "Working". I did that play when I was in high school, so I was very familliar with that show. Great show, loved it. So there weren't that many auditions for the show that day, so we just spent most of the time talking with the director of the show. She insisted that I audition, and I wasn't really in the mood to give up a whole month of my life for a community college that I didn't even attend. So I promptly turned her down.

On June 30, 1908, an object 165 feet wide is believed to have exploded 6.2 miles over the Tunguska region of Siberia with the force of a 10-megaton hydrogen bomb. Four hundred square miles of forest were flattened, untold numbers of reindeer were roasted and a man standing 60 miles away was knocked unconscious.

I hate when that happens! This is also a big thing that is happening in Kansas City on Tuesday. I guess I should mention that, since there really is no big news of the day.

So VOTE on Tuesday

Question 2

Ordinance No. 010745

Shall the City of Kansas City impose a City sales tax for the purpose of constructing, acquiring, renovating, equipping, furnishing, operating, and maintaining a light rail transit system serving Kansas City, Missouri, as authorized by Section 94.605 of the Revised Statutes of Missouri at a rate of ½% for a period of 25 years? Background A key recommendation of the FOCUS plan is to implement a fixed guideway transit like light rail in Kansas City, Mo. The City of Kansas City, Mo., Kansas City Area Transportation Authority, and citizens of Kansas City collaborated to develop an extensively researched proposal for light rail transit that would meet the requirements for the Federal Transit Administration for matching federal funds. This proposal, the Community Proposal for Light Rail, offers an opportunity to decide, based on professional research and planning, whether or not the City should build light rail transit. This is the first City-sponsored light rail proposal based on professional planning, and backed by funding from the Federal Transit Administration. The City is authorized to impose a sales tax, the use of which is only for transportation purposes under Section 94.605 under the Revised Statutes of Missouri, but this has not been utilized in the past. The City Council has agreed to fully support efforts to gain approval in the Missouri General Assembly for funding for public transit in Kansas City and the region. The City Council also supports similar efforts in the Kansas Legislature for regional transit improvements as well as continuing to coordinate with the KCATA and Mid-America Regional Council in studies for future expansion of the initial system to enhance transit throughout the entire region, including extension in accordance with the MARC Long Range Transit Plan, Transportation 2020. If Yes The ½% sales tax, if approved by the voters, would be collected over a 25-year period of time to provide the required local matching funds for construction of the proposed light rail system. Proceeds from the sales tax will also fund the maintenance and a portion of the operating costs of the system. This local commitment by the citizens of Kansas City is necessary before the federal match for capital funds can be requested. A portion of the tax proceeds will be used to acquire the right of way for future extensions to the airport and southern portions of Kansas City. If the sales tax is approved, the KCATA will, with the support of the City Council, request federal transit funds to pay for 60 percent of the cost for engineering and construction of the Community Proposal. If No If the voters do not approve the ½% sales tax, Kansas City will be unable to obtain federal funds to build light rail in Kansas City. There are no other funds available to build light rail transit in Kansas City.

Friday, August 3, 2001

The day that I almost had a fit driving to work

LIBRA - Today is a perfect day to make some interesting social contacts. In your business life, it's a good day for networking and connecting with other people in your field. You could attract some new clients or get some good ideas for running your business. In your personal life, you could meet some like-minded folks who might share many of your views. Be open to friendly gatherings with them, because they could become great pals. One thing to keep in mind today is that you should not judge people by their looks. Behind an ordinary looking face might be a genius brain! Give people a chance to show who they are before you turn your back on them!

Okay, so I'm driving to work this morning, minding my own business, driving down Metcalf in OPKS, when I'm stopped at a light (The light happens to be 75th street.) So I'm just sitting at the light, when I see this limo/taxi come from the gas station on the West side of Metcalf (and on the south side of 75th) come from out of the gas station, and cross over two lanes to get to the left hand turn lane, and turn left on 75th. This would have been fine, but what happened in the process is what pissed me off. The guy was stretching the limit of my patience anyway, but then, he got into the left hand turn lane, and somehow hit my car. I didn't see how he hit me, I just heard it, and felt it in the car too. By the time I had reacted to what had happened, he had already flown into the left hand turn lane, and tore off. He knew he hit me and that's why he tore off as fast as he did. So I was like "that guy just HIT me" and so I entertained thoughts of following him, but the oncoming lanes had already started to pull through the intersection, and there was no way that I could have caught him. So I pulled over and checked the car, and there was no damage, but that is SO not the point. It just pisses me off to know that people have such a lack of respect for other people's property. The guy didn't even look back and even wave or anything, he just tore off, knowing that he hit somebody else's car, and went about his day. Fucking taxi drivers. All I know is that it was a black Lincoln, who was at the gas station at 75th. It was a black Lincoln with a lettering on the side, so I assume it was a taxi service. Still pisses me off. I have a good mind to call all the taxi services in the area, and track him down, but since there was no damage, there's really no point. Anyway, I've been trying to get in touch with Kristin Gray.....god...who, the last time I heard anything from, was living in Colorado Springs, CO. I am trying to get back in touch with her, after a long hiatus.

One Chicago Train Rear-Ends Another
CHICAGO (AP) — An elevated train struck another one during morning rush hour Friday just north of the city's downtown Loop, injuring at least 13 people and leaving many commuters stranded. The two six-car trains did not derail and there were no immediate reports of life-threatening injuries. But hundreds of passengers were stranded on the trains that collided just after 9 a.m. and on other trains along the elevated line that were stopped after the accident. ``There was a really loud boom and there was smoke everywhere,'' said Yvette Pughsley, who was walking nearby when she witnessed the crash. ``The cars were rocking and I thought 'Oh my God, it's going to turn over.' If it was going any faster, they would have turned over.'' It was unclear how fast the trains were going or if an operator missed a stop signal, said Anne McCarthy, a spokeswoman for the Chicago Transit Authority. ``That will come out in the investigation,'' she said. Two passengers were in good condition at Northwestern Memorial Hospital and four more were en route there, said spokesman Jason Bernstein. Two more people were at Grant Hospital, and five more were expected there and at a third hospital. Fire Chief Dennis Gault said the injuries being reported are bumps, bruises, cuts and neck and back problems. He said there were no immediate reports of more serious injuries. After the accident, passengers could be seen standing in the open doors of the trains while rescuers with ladders helped them down to the street below. Other trains were stalled on the lines and left powerless in the wake of the accident, leaving hundreds of commuters to swelter in packed cars with no air conditioning. By late morning, the trains involved in the crash were being moved to a nearby station so more passengers could be removed.

So anyway, there's not much else going on. Lisa and Richard and I are supposed to be going out tonight, for a drink at the I'm looking forward to that. I just got an email from the woman at the Hope Cares center, and we are going to try to set up an informational meeting for the performance out there at the Center.

Hi Bill: I thought you would be interested in this. I will be out of town the week of the 13th but will call you and set something up for the following week. Tell me what is best for you and Richard: Early evening, weekends, late afternoon, etc. We will make it work. I am excited. Judy P.

I am so excited about I need to start perparing something for this extravaganza. I know that Richard will help me, I just need to organize this in my mind first, and then start writing things down. Do I want it to be a short program? and then of course, what am I going to sing? I think I'll have to work on this this weekend. Saturday, Richard and I have talked about going and looking at new cars for a while. I need to buy a new car, so I was going to look at the Kia's and some other cars..I don't know what I am going to do. It's so frustrating to have this sudden expense sort of forced on me, when I had no plans on doing car was paid off, and I had nothing in the forseeable future. Ah well, if I can just release it, then it'll all work out. That's what I just have to remember to do. Release it, it'll all work out. Getting my car stolen was just an opportunity that presented itself, now I have to work with the universe, and just change my perception about it! God, this is exactly what I needed, at exactly when I needed: a little perk up from my friend Aaron! Funny how life presents things exactly when you need them:

-----Original Message----- From: ALSmith []
Sent: Friday, August 03, 2001 11:30 AM
To: william.k.rosen
Cc: ALSmith
Subject: Train collision

Those two trains HAD to have been Brown lines or Purple lines, from the intersection mentioned in the picture (Oak/Orleans). The Red Line is underground by that point. SUCH shitty service on CTA these days...and they're actually considering a rate hike! For what? Shitty service? I can just send lots of letters through the USPS if I want lousy service at higher prices... Guess you've heard about yesterday's deluge here...pretty awful! I couldn't find my umbrella at home and I was running late, so I thought, "Well right now, it's just kind of overcast...maybe I'll chance it and the bus will get here before it starts." After all, I only have to cross the street to catch it.

I no sooner stepped out the front door when I was drenched--as if somebody had just thrown many buckets of water on me! I was soaked--sopping--sodden--before I EVEN crossed the street to the bus stop. And there was the customary 10-minute wait for the next bus. Lake Shore Drive was backed up and it took 1 1/2 hours to get to work! The windows on the bus were all fogged up, and we were sliding around on the road and stuff. Many people had to leave work early because of flooding in their basements. I guess it's good that I live on the third floor! Until such time as a tornado actually DOES hit...then I won't be so happy.

I was sorry to hear about the Careless Cab Driver--but then, they're all such mercenary assholes. I'm glad there was no damage to your car. Did they ever find your other car (Sue Ellen)? What a drag that it was stolen--couldn't believe that!
Well, I'll talk to you again soon. Take care!
Aaron :-)

well I am in a better mindset now. I keep on running into Jarie Newsome, from church. It's so funny because we keep running into each other, when we both need to, at completely random times. We both like to go to lunch late in the day, and we both arrive at the cafeteria...completely independantly, and completely unplanned. Then we see eachother, and it's like, this keeps on happening over and over...I love it. She's such a wonderful soul, so peaceful. It's always a wonderful thing to run into Jarie.